It’s nine days into the new year and I’ve already decided to change my word. Fearless is just something I will never be no matter how much I would like it or how many years I make it my word. Fear is something I experience everyday. It’s not going away no matter how hard I try to ignore it. So, I’m changing it up a bit. My word for this year is…..
I will try more at working through my fears. I will be brave! I will make my own decisions. I will live with my decisions. I will act on what I believe to be of value and worthy of my time and effort. I will be an advocate for my children. I will try new things. I will not be manipulated by people or an institution. It’s going to be a good year with my brave attitude!
When I was a teenager I would react to fear or anxiety by falling asleep. I miss those days! Now I wake at 3:00 am with my heart and mind racing! I need to be brave just so I can get some sleep, sheesh.
Today my fear is centered around Cameron and Ethan. We signed them up for Snow Blitz. They will be picked up after school by bus and taken to the ski resort for skiing lessons. I’m worried about the bus ride through the snow. I am anxious that Cameron will have a hard time and react with his temper. I fear Ethan will not find friends. I am afraid they will lose their ski passes that I told them to leave in their zipper pockets and to never remove. I fear they will hit a tree.
So many worries. Big Breath.
I have been playing this song for my boys in the morning before school. I love it when
they come home singing it at the top of their lungs!